I will learn to love myself now

Well, first of all....

Happy Birthday to Youngest Sister! Annie Melody Lim!

Her birthday was yesterday and she is 1 yr older now!

Beloved cute sister is always the one that seems so young yet sometimes more mature than us.

And how she turn into a fine young pretty lady now! I wish her pass her exam fast and go out and enjoy herself soon cos she been at home everyday studying!

Secondly...

Me and Mr Ng are not together anymore.

Everyone was asking why I shut down my blog and I can only apologize.

I was hit hard....

I think the worst thing that can happen is that suddenly some major things in your life just disappeared....

While my career life is going through a downslope, I thought that my love life can gave me the support and the strength to help me up.

And maybe we were just not meant to be.....

It is so strange that two person who seems so in love can turn into strangers overnight.....

The reason for this post is to remind myself. To remind myself that I am lucky, the other 2 major things of life had pulled me up.

1. My family.

Younger Sis was the one who heard about the news first. She had been listening to me patiently, chatting with me during the period where I was just not myself. Though she do not understand how to help me but she had been very sweet and understanding. Keeping me company during the difficult period.

Youngest Sis had never comment anything but she will help me run some errands because I had been at home without going out much and just seeing her ever-bubbly character, I felt better.

Mummy had been upset as well but I guess that she just want me to be happy.

2. My Friends

Thanks and sorry to make you worried. I really thank them for being in my life, though I didnt really explained much, they were ever willing to open their doors for me. To just lend the listening ears that I need, to provide support for me. To be there for me if I needed them.

I had been worried about posting the news....I had been scared to tell the people who had been asking....

But I had been running away from this issue for very long and shutting myself out, I think it is time I just let it go.

I had been deceiving myself thinking that nothing had happened, he was going oversea, I will forget everything, it was just a nightmare......

But deep inside, I knew.

No matter what I do, no matter how I changed, no matter how nice I will be, no matter what crazy things I did, no matter how much I will think of him, no matter how long we had been together, no matter what he thinks, no matter how happy I try, no matter how sad i am, no matter how hard i try, no matter how much i care, no matter how understanding i am....

I guess it just doesnt matter anymore.

Because I am facing the fact now.

And the only thing I need to do now is to learn to love myself all over again now.

Love,
Poisonlady


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